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I can’t take back what I say.
I can’t take back what I give.
I can’t take back what I feel.
I can’t take back all that I am thinking of.
I slow down,
I speed.
I take a sip,
I gulp.
I take a stroll,
I sprint.
Some say…
I am holding back.
I am avoiding reality.
I am living in denial.
I am living in luxury.
I say…
You may not be wrong.
You may not understand.
You may not misinterpret.
&
You may be right.
現在這種情況，
或許是應該離開這個地方的時候了。
在這個地方被捆綁太久了，
想要出去看看，又或許我的心境很不平靜。
一心有個解不開的結，死綁住不放。
或許有些人會懂原因，
也或者不懂。
都不重要了。
顧慮那麽多，從開心的人都變得非常不快樂。
現在，我真的得平靜一下。
超想要找個地方，自己一個人。
我渴望人潮，我渴望熱鬧。
既然沒有人能夠達到我所要的，我也不勉強。
我盡力了。
或許也失敗了。
愛情，友情，親情…
或許它們當中有個憎恨我。
I just came across a blog that writes about such.
那些心裡充滿恨的人，最後只會恨自己。
走不過的就停擺在那裏，逃不過的又不認命只想輸給自己卻贏不了自己。
當你看著眼前的無底洞許久只會越感好奇隨時都會往下墜，而你又怪誰?
但也別裝做太無所謂，那只會更讓自己越看越低賤。怕過於轟烈嗎?還是過度沉靜?
如果不怕，那在這懸崖邊妳會如何選擇?
一鼓作氣往下跳還是奮不顧身的往回跑。
我們一直在人生中尋找太多答案，而當我們要到了這些所謂的答案，是妳想聽見的看見的嗎。還是結局是哭喪著臉笑自己這些年來這麼愚蠢可悲的盲目追求那些自找麻煩的枷鎖，卻是早已是分裂成灰的結。生命太脆弱，我們所武裝自己也脆弱，看見的看不見的都是那麼容易毀壞，
那我們究竟在恨些什麼。曾經妳也是犯了不少錯傷害了某些人不是嗎。
現在過不去....
結果是妳對不起自己，從來沒有人對不起妳。
如果在這泥沼裡妳玩的開心，那就祝妳開心。
--- 林仔仔, no.22 深夜節目
I’m trying my best to go back to those days. Two types, either the androgynous me, or the girly me. I can only choose one.
Or rather, I can be both. Slim down first, right?
There are no words that could explain how I’m feeling right now. There have been too many things that’s happening around me. There was the air ticket issue, the magazine closing issue, the auditor issue, the infatuation issue, the i-dont-want-to-talk-to-you issue, the stupid man issue, etc.
I’m torn and worn. There are some things which are not directly linked to me, yet these things have changed my life suddenly. Ok, it made me feel tired emotionally, mentally but definitely not physically. Waking up in the morning is a chore!
And it’s Monday again, I am suspected of depression. Ok, just tell me about it. I’m not mentally healthy. I don’t feel like myself, for real.
I miss myself, who I was last time.
Works well with others. Needs personal relationships which are understanding and relatively conflict-free.
"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."
Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic, but needs reassurance from others. Has strict standards when looking for a partner and wants guarantees that she will not be disappointed or lose."
Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.
"Fascinated by the idea of mutual true love and tenderness. Embarrassed by this belief and refuses to admit openly she feels this way. Instead, she chooses to be neither loving nor tender to further hide her true belief."
His desire to be respected and to stand out from the crowd is not being satisfied and therefore she is feeling anxious. her normal friendly self is being held back and she refuses to become involved or participate with others in normal day to day activities.
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html
Disorder
Your Score
Major Depression:
Very High
Dysthymia:
High-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:
Moderate
Cyclothymia:
High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:
Very High
我给你的你用不着了
wo gei ni de ni yong bu zhao le
你也失去该有的快乐
ni ye shi qu gai you de kuai le
付出的温柔再不属于我
fu chu de wen rou zai bu shu yu wo
你无福消受谁应该难过
ni wu fu xiao shou shei ying gai nan guo
没事了 没事吗 坚强得太寂寞
mei shi le mei shi ma jian qiang de tai ji mo
脑袋空空 难道是我要的结果
nao dai kong kong nan dao shi wo yao de jie guo
爱给了我什么 没沉沦就超脱
ai gei le wo shen me mei chen lun jiu chao tuo
爱不能伤害我 还是我没爱过
ai bu neng shang hai wo hai shi wo mei ai guo
我没做错什么 却把一切错过
wo mei zuo cuo shen me que ba yi qie cuo guo
你是爱不起我 我也对不起我
ni shi ai bu qi wo wo ye dui bu qi wo
不敢看你就尝试看破
bu gan kan ni jiu chang shi kan po
别让伤口有机会发作
bie rang shang kou you ji hui fa zuo
为小说剧情而惊心动魄
wei xiao shuo ju qing er jing xin dong po
好证明泪腺还没有萎缩
hao zheng ming lei xian hai mei you wei suo
没事了 没事吗 自爱得太寂寞
mei shi le mei shi ma zi ai de tai ji mo
一身清白 难道是我要的结果
yi shen qing bai nan dao shi wo yao de jie guo
爱给了我什么 没沉沦就超脱
ai gei le wo shen me mei chen lun jiu chao tuo
爱不能伤害我 还是我没爱过
ai bu neng shang hai wo hai shi wo mei ai guo
我没做错什么 却把一切错过
wo mei zuo cuo shen me que ba yi qie cuo guo
你是爱不起我 我也对不起我
ni shi ai bu qi wo wo ye dui bu qi wo
爱偷走我什么 没损失更失落
ai tou zou wo shen me mei shun shi geng shi luo
爱不能伤害我 是福气还是祸
ai bu neng shang hai wo shi fu qi hai shi huo
我没胆量犯错 才把一切错过
wo mei dan liang fan cuo cai bai yi qie cuo guo
你没能留住我 我却对不住我
ni mei neng liu zhu wo wo que dui bu zhu wo
你應該很開心吧。你應該會找到你自己的幸福的。
雖然我們有緣無份但是，我真真切切的祝福你。
你不會懂我現在的心情，多少的針刺穿過它。
我的單戀，也就這樣結束了。。。
好心碎哦…. :(
《寂寞寂寞就好》歌词内容描述一个坚强的女生面对失恋的方法，就是让自己彻底地寂寞，用一种略带逞强的口吻，表达自己接受寂寞和面对伤口的态度。作词人以田馥甄的个性为蓝本，写出"不过流掉几公升泪所以变瘦"、"死不了就还好"、"你真的不用来我回忆里微笑"等句子，表现率性洒脱的态度。为了符合歌曲和歌词的抒情摇滚精神，田馥甄在配唱时几乎唱到声嘶力竭，不保留丝毫力气的诠释，果然成功地树立田式倔强酷狠风格。
歌名：寂寞寂寞就好
歌手：田馥甄 Hebe
還是原來那個我 不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容
不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫
我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉
還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看的見以後
我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉
PS: 歌詞一點都沒有錯“你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑”，因爲“我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了”，我相信“我總會把你戒掉”。
I was going through Tumblr.com and I found this really cute .gif thing.
Hahaha, I can’t stop squealing at it’s cuteness :D
