WHEN WORDS AND PICTURES MEET.

OFFICIALLY.

2010-10-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY MOVING OVER TO

TUMBLR.COM
HTTP://IEATBUNS.TUMBLR.COM

BE IT PRIVATE, OR PUBLIC.
I’LL CONTINUE TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS,
MY FOOTSTEPS, MY MOODS WITH YOU THERE.

THANKS FOR ALL OF YOU WHO’VE BEEN HERE WITH ME SINCE AWHILE AGO.

LET’S LET THIS BLOG BE FORGOTTEN, AND MOVE ON TO THE NEXT NEW YET NOT TOO NEW BLOG@ TUMBLR.COM

WITH LOVE,
GERRY.KOH

Hold Back

2010-09-21T23:04:00.001+08:00

I can’t take back what I say.
I can’t take back what I give.
I can’t take back what I feel.
I can’t take back all that I am thinking of.

I slow down,
I speed.

I take a sip,
I gulp.

I take a stroll,
I sprint.

Some say…

I am holding back.
I am avoiding reality.
I am living in denial.
I am living in luxury.

I say…

You may not be wrong.
You may not understand.
You may not misinterpret.

&

You may be right.

或許

2010-09-19T23:21:00.001+08:00

現在這種情況，
或許是應該離開這個地方的時候了。

在這個地方被捆綁太久了，
想要出去看看，又或許我的心境很不平靜。
一心有個解不開的結，死綁住不放。

或許有些人會懂原因，
也或者不懂。

都不重要了。
顧慮那麽多，從開心的人都變得非常不快樂。

現在，我真的得平靜一下。
超想要找個地方，自己一個人。

我渴望人潮，我渴望熱鬧。
既然沒有人能夠達到我所要的，我也不勉強。

我盡力了。
或許也失敗了。

愛情，友情，親情…

或許它們當中有個憎恨我。

激勵，

2010-09-19T23:14:00.001+08:00

I just came across a blog that writes about such.

那些心裡充滿恨的人，最後只會恨自己。
走不過的就停擺在那裏，逃不過的又不認命只想輸給自己卻贏不了自己。
當你看著眼前的無底洞許久只會越感好奇隨時都會往下墜，而你又怪誰?
但也別裝做太無所謂，那只會更讓自己越看越低賤。

怕過於轟烈嗎?還是過度沉靜?

如果不怕，那在這懸崖邊妳會如何選擇?
一鼓作氣往下跳還是奮不顧身的往回跑。
我們一直在人生中尋找太多答案，而當我們要到了這些所謂的答案，是妳想聽見的看見的嗎。還是結局是哭喪著臉笑自己這些年來這麼愚蠢可悲的盲目追求那些自找麻煩的枷鎖，卻是早已是分裂成灰的結。

生命太脆弱，我們所武裝自己也脆弱，看見的看不見的都是那麼容易毀壞，
那我們究竟在恨些什麼。

曾經妳也是犯了不少錯傷害了某些人不是嗎。
現在過不去....
結果是妳對不起自己，從來沒有人對不起妳。
如果在這泥沼裡妳玩的開心，那就祝妳開心。

--- 林仔仔, no.22 深夜節目

Back to the Start

2010-09-19T22:56:00.001+08:00

I’m trying my best to go back to those days. Two types, either the androgynous me, or the girly me. I can only choose one.

Or rather, I can be both. Slim down first, right?

Worn out.

2010-09-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

There are no words that could explain how I’m feeling right now. There have been too many things that’s happening around me. There was the air ticket issue, the magazine closing issue, the auditor issue, the infatuation issue, the i-dont-want-to-talk-to-you issue, the stupid man issue, etc.

I’m torn and worn. There are some things which are not directly linked to me, yet these things have changed my life suddenly. Ok, it made me feel tired emotionally, mentally but definitely not physically. Waking up in the morning is a chore!

And it’s Monday again, I am suspected of depression. Ok, just tell me about it. I’m not mentally healthy. I don’t feel like myself, for real.

I miss myself, who I was last time.

What’s so true?

2010-09-19T14:10:00.001+08:00

When there was good news in this place

2010-09-19T14:00:00.001+08:00

Color Test - Results

2010-09-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php

Your Existing Situation

Works well with others. Needs personal relationships which are understanding and relatively conflict-free.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic, but needs reassurance from others. Has strict standards when looking for a partner and wants guarantees that she will not be disappointed or lose."

Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Your Desired Objective

"Fascinated by the idea of mutual true love and tenderness. Embarrassed by this belief and refuses to admit openly she feels this way. Instead, she chooses to be neither loving nor tender to further hide her true belief."

Your Actual Problem

His desire to be respected and to stand out from the crowd is not being satisfied and therefore she is feeling anxious. her normal friendly self is being held back and she refuses to become involved or participate with others in normal day to day activities.

Personality Disorder Test

2010-09-19T00:55:00.001+08:00

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

Depression Test

2010-09-19T00:45:00.001+08:00

Disorder
Your Score

Major Depression:
Very High

Dysthymia:
High-Moderate

Bipolar Disorder:
Moderate

Cyclothymia:
High

Seasonal Affective Disorder:
Very High

Postpartum Depression:
N/A

田馥甄 Hebe – 我对不起我

2010-09-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

我给你的你用不着了
wo gei ni de ni yong bu zhao le

你也失去该有的快乐
ni ye shi qu gai you de kuai le

付出的温柔再不属于我
fu chu de wen rou zai bu shu yu wo

你无福消受谁应该难过
ni wu fu xiao shou shei ying gai nan guo

没事了没事吗坚强得太寂寞
mei shi le mei shi ma jian qiang de tai ji mo

脑袋空空难道是我要的结果
nao dai kong kong nan dao shi wo yao de jie guo

爱给了我什么没沉沦就超脱

ai gei le wo shen me mei chen lun jiu chao tuo
爱不能伤害我还是我没爱过
ai bu neng shang hai wo hai shi wo mei ai guo

我没做错什么却把一切错过
wo mei zuo cuo shen me que ba yi qie cuo guo

你是爱不起我我也对不起我
ni shi ai bu qi wo wo ye dui bu qi wo

不敢看你就尝试看破
bu gan kan ni jiu chang shi kan po

别让伤口有机会发作
bie rang shang kou you ji hui fa zuo

为小说剧情而惊心动魄
wei xiao shuo ju qing er jing xin dong po

好证明泪腺还没有萎缩
hao zheng ming lei xian hai mei you wei suo

没事了没事吗自爱得太寂寞
mei shi le mei shi ma zi ai de tai ji mo

一身清白难道是我要的结果
yi shen qing bai nan dao shi wo yao de jie guo

爱给了我什么没沉沦就超脱
ai gei le wo shen me mei chen lun jiu chao tuo

爱不能伤害我还是我没爱过
ai bu neng shang hai wo hai shi wo mei ai guo

我没做错什么却把一切错过
wo mei zuo cuo shen me que ba yi qie cuo guo

你是爱不起我我也对不起我
ni shi ai bu qi wo wo ye dui bu qi wo

爱偷走我什么没损失更失落
ai tou zou wo shen me mei shun shi geng shi luo

爱不能伤害我是福气还是祸
ai bu neng shang hai wo shi fu qi hai shi huo

我没胆量犯错才把一切错过
wo mei dan liang fan cuo cai bai yi qie cuo guo

你没能留住我我却对不住我
ni mei neng liu zhu wo wo que dui bu zhu wo

什麽時候才能不單戀呢？

2010-09-05T02:02:00.001+08:00

你應該很開心吧。你應該會找到你自己的幸福的。

雖然我們有緣無份但是，我真真切切的祝福你。

你不會懂我現在的心情，多少的針刺穿過它。

我的單戀，也就這樣結束了。。。

好心碎哦…. :(

林俊杰&張靚穎《我飛故我在》完整版MV

2010-09-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

ta and ta.

2010-09-01T22:31:00.001+08:00

oh no, this is happening to me again.
what an ugly feeling :|

To you

2010-08-28T15:07:00.001+08:00

14 hours.
Made my day.

You will not stay.
I know it well.

But..
Thank you.

寂寞寂寞就好 Hebe 田馥甄

2010-08-24T21:14:00.001+08:00

《寂寞寂寞就好》歌词内容描述一个坚强的女生面对失恋的方法，就是让自己彻底地寂寞，用一种略带逞强的口吻，表达自己接受寂寞和面对伤口的态度。作词人以田馥甄的个性为蓝本，写出"不过流掉几公升泪所以变瘦"、"死不了就还好"、"你真的不用来我回忆里微笑"等句子，表现率性洒脱的态度。为了符合歌曲和歌词的抒情摇滚精神，田馥甄在配唱时几乎唱到声嘶力竭，不保留丝毫力气的诠释，果然成功地树立田式倔强酷狠风格。

歌名：寂寞寂寞就好
歌手：田馥甄 Hebe

還是原來那個我不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼什麼都沒有早點看破才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

PS: 歌詞一點都沒有錯“你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑”，因爲“我就不相信我會笨到忘不了”，我相信“我總會把你戒掉”。

Things Only KohTanTang will do :)

2010-08-21T20:37:00.001+08:00

So cute!

2010-08-08T11:04:00.001+08:00

I was going through Tumblr.com and I found this really cute .gif thing.
Hahaha, I can’t stop squealing at it’s cuteness :D

I am ugly, it's not a crime.

2010-07-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

爲什麽長得醜就沒有人喜歡呢？
爲什麽只單看外表呢？
爲什麽這個世界上的人都那麽的浮淺呢！
根本就不公平嘛！

長成這樣子有罪嗎？我們願意的嗎？
恨死了這些自以爲自己很好的人！

醜的人也有一顆善良的心，
也有一顆人肉做的心臟。
不是隨意讓人說想要糟蹋就糟蹋的！

胖、矮、醜...
不是自願的，不是自己想要的！
爲什麽周圍的人都這樣浮淺，這麽天真，這麽過分！

我們這類型的人也能夠也可以擁有屬於自己的幸福，
而我們的幸福並不是任何人能夠批判的！

我... 累了，疲憊不堪了，精神徹底崩潰了！
再也不想要去想自己未來有誰離開有誰會參與...
真的好累好累，人人告訴我他們“幸福的煩惱”
有沒有真正的考慮過我的感受呢？

獨生女，很好！
獨生女，最幸福了！
獨生女，要什麽有什麽！

誰？是誰告訴你們這些的？
你們太天真、也跟著其他人定義我們這些空虛又沒人懂的獨生女嗎？
我們不是能夠讓你們說要講講就講幾句的！
我們不是可以輕易讓你們傷害的。

至今....我還在痛心。
回想起不該想到的東西，
記得一些不應該記得的東西。
有些人，微微的和我擦肩而過但卻留下那麽深刻的印象！

討厭這種窩囊的感覺，
仿佛全世界都捆綁著我，我透不過氣來了！

離開。
我對我自己的前塵，看不清。
但是我清楚地知道我絕對不輕易的讓任何人打破冰山！

絕對不可以。
因爲我再也不想受到傷害了。
我怕了，我已經想要退縮了。

Being a listener

2010-07-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

I begin to feel that being a listener is really tiring. People will continue ranting the issue over and over again, just recently an online friend was telling about her being lonely, having nothing better to do and need to find a partner whatsoever. I've scolded her, ask her to wake up! Life's not about finding a partner - to seek comfort and satisfy whatever needs you have - and if she's really needing someone then work on it, go out cruising then, go hit the girls in the pubs, they may fall for her, right?

Apparently, she don't listen & I can't be bothered anymore. Really.

Happy Lemon!

2010-07-25T14:24:00.001+08:00

Mandie introduced this drink.
Woah! 精神爽！

Fang Ting can try cutting that hair ;)

Food For Thought – Friends Edition

2010-07-25T13:45:00.001+08:00

Food For Thought – Food Edition

2010-07-25T13:30:00.001+08:00

Humans and more humans

2010-07-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

Recently, there have been many things that happened which made me wonder and rethink about the meaning of life? My manager’s maid’s parents passed away together in their country, they were riding a bicycle and the next moment dead. My friend’s friend’s grandfather passed away, and before that her 2 other friends’ grandparents passed away too.

Hmm, we should live life contented and to the fullest right? But there are times when you think that your days are very routine and the lifestyle you adopt is very similar every single day, and you yearn for a change or hoping very much for some spices in your life.

It’s too boring. Sian!

They are all one-sided

2010-07-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

All I need now is music I guess. I just saw something which I accidentally come across. I didn’t know I would hurt so much. Everything is one-sided. Nothing much happened, or rather nothing happened. Maybe it’s just me, and myself. We are nothing.

Why do I hurt a bit? Why do I feel hurt? It’s so silly. Over the years, except a lucky one time which lasted for three years, all the others are one-sided. I’m not doing anything about it. I haven’t come across anyone who I could put feelings into. When there was any, my feelings are one-sided only. That’s enough.

It so happen that right now, my playlist is playing two very sad songs. I’ve no clue, I feel like crying.

I am bored, I am alone, I am cold, I am emotionally shaken.

When you think the world fails you.

2010-07-14T22:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes when you think that nobody else in this world understands you, or try to understand you. Don’t be shattered. I just had myself feel disappointed minutes ago. I was trying to explain to my granny and aunties about a manager’s attitude and behaviour towards me. I felt they couldn’t understand because they do not go through the same shit I go through each day. What they do is hear, hear about her and don’t know her well enough to judge like how my colleagues and I share the same opinion of this person. Moreover, they belong to the same era.

I gave up explaining myself. I remembered a friend who once told me, “What’s the point of explaining? Nobody understands.” Hey, I get what you mean now. No matter how much you explain you feel like your just strumming the guitar to the cow and it wouldn’t respond but be stubborn in its own ways. They think the manager wasn’t wrong. I quit. I quit explaining myself. From then on, I will ensure that nothing of what I say requires me to explain myself 10 times to convince a person. After 2 times of explaining, I will just step back. That’s fine. Go ahead, because I believe there’ll be someday these people will know what I’m trying to explain.

And that’s only when they experience it, go through it. Like how I just got to understand my friend’s logic of – pointless to explain.

The world is definitely round. In fact, the world didn’t fail us. It taught us lessons which we refuse to pick up when we heard of it before things happened. Our refusal to take advice may have caused us much misery of such.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDIE!

2010-07-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you
happy birthday to MANDIE!
happy birthday to youuuuuuu!

may you have a wonderful birthday
filled with love and awesomeness!

MUACKS!

2-DAYS MC

2010-07-13T13:26:00.001+08:00

I fell sick since Thursday, I had those symptoms on Tuesday evening. That explains why I couldn’t force myself to feed on Fries and Spags from Food For Thought while out with the KTTs. That was awesome food, but I was down with the queasy tummy and floating mind, I was superstitious that I walked passed an ongoing funeral just few units away from Food for Thought. I thought, that was that.

Shortly, a day later, I feel coldness filling me up. But oh wells, I don’t care till Thursday I totally gave up. I am sick, and I need the doctor. She didn’t give me the MC, great and thought that I am a kid who’s trying to bluff MC. What dumbass company doctors! Adam Patrick was much better than this cheena old woman, hate her! So I had fever on Thursday evening, popped 2 pills and sweat it out. Felt much better, but was super groggy. I didn’t know that my aunty put a glass of water on the table and I drank it! I didn’t know all happened! I was unconscious.

Friday I went back to work, continue working as I knew I am on course for two-days this week. But, little did I know I am down with some more sickies. Flu bug caught me, and my whole freaking body was aching, I was in pain. Saturday and Sunday was a torture. So I finally went to the doctor yesterday and had been given 2-DAYS MC!

My manager replied my msg earlier in the morning that made me want to smack up left-right-up-down. “but U must produce an MC as the course has been paid for, rest well take care!” Oh shuddup, that’s very low EQ! I am really sick, the doctor will definitely give me MC la. I didn’t watch the worldcup to get the MC mind you, idiot. She has the attitude nowadays, like as though she’s the one holding the globe controlling everything that’s spinning on earth. I am trying not to be bothered by her. Unlike her, knowing that the company doesn’t allow time-offs, she takes them like it was her grandfather who opened this company. She’s bias, unfair and an unworthy person to be here!

It.

2010-07-13T12:53:00.001+08:00

When magazines and fashion fill our lives. There are many untold stories people don't know. Many people see only the end product and seldom understand the hardwork behind every extravaganza.

She has the style, so I like!

2010-07-13T12:00:00.001+08:00

She look like Stephanie, but she isn’t. Ah!

The Little Prince

2010-07-13T11:13:00.001+08:00

I’ve read The Little Prince not long ago. I bought that version that had Chinese, English and French. The English was completely broken, but I managed to catch a meaning or two. It was a meaningful book, that I regret not realizing it earlier.

Try reading it. It’s very quick. Just 1 day and you’ll understand what the story was trying teach you. Allow me to copy a portion of the story to share it with you.

“Goodbye,” said the fox. “Here is my secret. It’s quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes. . . . It’s the time that you spent on your rose that makes your rose so important. . . . People have forgotten this truth,” the fox said, “But you mustn’t forget it. You become responsible for what you’ve tamed. You’re responsible for your rose. . . .”

Many many things!

2010-07-10T20:06:00.001+08:00

Love it lah! :D

Went for my dental appointment today, oh! another wisdom tooth has been found! It was the one that caused all the pain I assume. I didn’t tell my dentist about it. I haven’t seen her for the longest time, 2-years! Sheesh! I promise to go for regular check-ups k! I’m losing teeth already! :(

Make me wanna cry. BOOHOO!

加滑！很水啦~

2010-07-06T00:25:00.001+08:00

我一直都在試著達到加滑的那頂髮色。
很適合她，哦~偶像嘛！

喔耶！
反正我的頭髮修短了。。。
有舒服哦~好啦，安啦~

Oh Mandie…

2010-06-20T23:12:00.001+08:00

Hey babe! I owe you money! SGD$5!!!
& if you’re intending to go there again,

RING ME UP!
BUZZ ME!

My 酷樂貼…

2010-06-20T23:10:00.001+08:00

& if you think that this thing is for you to only put on your head, you might be wrong. because i was super surprise that it can be used for toothaches and to refresh yourself. it can last for 8-hours! haha, quite awesome!

so.. this is me :P

ok, not toothache. it’s gum pains. chinese sinseh says, 你體内的熱氣太多了！要喝多點涼的降熱啊！okay okay, I’m very very heaty, so it has affected the whole mouth. and it has lasted for 2 weeks. yes, so I’m in pain everyday. oh wells. what to do lah! i don’t feel like seeing the dentist cos’ FIRSTLY, I need to take leave – WASTE LEAVE! SECONDLY, take leave cos it’s on a Tuesday, my favourite dentist, I won’t see another! LASTLY, seeing a dentist means PHOBIA!

i am feeling better now. okay now i should bring around my 酷樂貼 even to the office heh. my aunty was joking with me, “eh like that see if you can reduce weight.” ahhh, thank you. i would love to and want to take this opportunity. cos’ no more fast food and heaty food. the pain regulates my food intake too!

One life. Live it.

2010-06-13T10:41:00.001+08:00

Hey, Mr. Wrong.

I got the wrong impression that I like you. But in fact, I’m just finding another excuse to be liking somebody. Honestly, those were the days we had and the times we spent. I am back at without know you, and without knowing everyone else who has made a scar. It hurts to much to remember anything, I choose to run away. Even for you, I want to run away. Your anything and everything.

I don’t care anymore and I am not suppose to care.
A soft goodbye, okay.

Cheers,
Gerry

Family, ties.

2010-06-12T15:35:00.001+08:00

It’s a funny thing when it comes to human relationships. Whenever they argue over the smallest things, I laughed to myself. It’s because I found them really stupid, and foolish.

She said “You treat us like strangers though we live under one roof.” That’s so contradicting isn’t it. We’re afterall a family and don’t have to bother so much about whether who bought lunch or dinner whatsoever. That’s very childish isn’t it.

Well, it takes two hands to clap, else that fire wouldn’t spark off. So, if she asked, the other won’t be left without lunch. Well, it all voices down to initiative. Grandma and I were eating our lunches very quietly to avoid that internal conflict. We’re very sick and tired of them liking to quarrel, and they both have their own point of views.

Oh, family. It’s so complicated suddenly.

文芳的YSL

2010-06-12T14:50:00.001+08:00

This dress was on Olivia Ong's cover page for Nuyou in our April special issue. Ha, was telling Grace that it looked like pyjamas. The whole editorial team was laughing madly and end up posing how the rest of the cover girls posed. Oh, btw, this dress is from Yves Saint Lauren.

One Day Official Movie Site & Trailer | All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream

2010-06-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

One Day Official Movie Site & Trailer | All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream

I like!

2010-06-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

阮经天香港认错坦承许玮甯生气 | 台湾娱乐八卦新闻

2010-06-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

阮经天香港认错坦承许玮甯生气 | 台湾娱乐八卦新闻

哎喲！
不要再有負面新聞了好不好？！
《女友》本來還想要再去找你採訪的~

男友大喊老婆我爱你 Selina泪崩 | 台湾娱乐八卦新闻

2010-06-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

男友大喊老婆我爱你 Selina泪崩 | 台湾娱乐八卦新闻

哈哈，要幸福啦~

Fifth Avenue Shoe Repair

2010-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

Home - Fifth Avenue Shoe Repair

Got a call to inform me about this Fred Perry-affiliated shop.

I like their style, simplicity yet with a tinge of modern aura.

Why shoe repair when they are selling clothes?
Apparently the founder who was a shoe-maker
decided to go into tailoring too, and he’s still making shoes.

Find out from their shop ;)

You didn't have to.

2010-05-31T12:29:00.002+08:00

You really didn’t have to tell me about yourself.
I am really not interested.

For what belongs to history remains history,
I am one who stands here facing the crowd,
With only a naked soul and a fucked up mind.

You tell of your heart’s desire,
The words nobody yearns to hear.

You can sing your own song,
I can write my novels.
You no longer belong,
Neither do I care anymore.

Where the heart becomes cold,
And the mind numbed from sorrows.
May there be a day,
I stop to burrow.

Tommy Reeve -I'm Sorry Acoustic

2010-05-30T05:07:00.000+08:00

I know I wasn´t there
When you needed me the most
I know I didn´t care
and was afraid to get so close
tonight it´s getting hard to fall asleep
cause it´s becoming clear that I broke all into pieces
and I can not reverse it
so I´ve got one more thing to say

chorus:
I´m sorry for your pain
I´m sorry for your tears
for all the little things I didn´t know
I´m sorry for the words I didn´t say
but what I still do
I´m still loving you

I know I let you wait
I´ve been away for far too long
but now I can relate
to everything that I did wrong
stop breathing when I think I´m losing you
and there´ll be no excuse so I´m on my knees
so listen please
Let me hold your hand once again

chorus 2x:
I´m sorry for your pain
I´m sorry for your tears
for all the little things I didn´t know
I´m sorry for the words I didn´t say
I´m sorry for the lies
I´m sorry for the fights
for not showing my love a dozen times
I´m sorry for the things that I´ve called mine
but what I still do
I´m still loving you

That´s what I will always do

誠品網路書店 - 梵谷與我: 汪東城的字．畫．像 (限量書封版)

2010-05-30T02:34:00.000+08:00

誠品網路書店 - 梵谷與我: 汪東城的字．畫．像 (限量書封版)

原本還在想這傢伙跑哪兒去了，
很不巧的在誠品網路書店看書的時候
偶遇汪東城這好小子，
出書咯！

我當然會支持啊，
我的書架真的要好好整理一下咯！

言承旭- 怕黑 [HQ]

2010-05-29T02:46:00.000+08:00

漸漸

2010-05-04T01:03:00.001+08:00

我發現自己近日來有自我封閉的舉止。不太想要說話。朋友甚至懷疑我狂笑是不是真的。我真的不想對任何人解釋自己真正的想法是甚麼。我只想趁機消除心中的納悶而已，就是那麼簡單。可以嗎？

別再問我無聊的問題了！也別再懷疑我的狂笑是真還是假的。不要可以嗎？

omy - 娱乐 Showbiz - S.H.E签名会　粉丝为霸好位排队17小时

2010-05-01T12:26:00.000+08:00

omy - 娱乐 Showbiz - S.H.E签名会　粉丝为霸好位排队17小时

Let pictures speak :D

2010-04-25T01:16:00.001+08:00

The poly girls :D With love <3

Happyness is simple :)

2010-04-18T00:21:00.001+08:00

It was a good Saturday, met up with Chermaine and Ruby together with Gillian, went to Vivo, had lunch and we had super serious talks. I like this feeling, but there’s one thing which I kept teasing myself about during lunch. All 3 of them are attached, and I’m still single! All 3 of them are using LV wallets but I’m not. Does using an LV wallet mean getting attached faster?

OF COURSE NOT GERRIE! DON’T BE STUPID! HAHA!

I was just kidding. I am not rushing, instead after speaking to all of them today it makes me realize that after all these years have passed, everyone of us indeed had gone through much struggle. Everyone’s struggling to survive in this society. It is not easy to meet a group of friends chit-chatting and giving advice to one another. Talking about life-plans, talking about their personal life, about everything that’s going on in their lives. I felt warmth :)

Right here, sitting down aftermath of all the talking sense, and making me realize reality. I’ve discovered the actual kind of feeling that I’ve been containing within me. I have come to let go, I am putting things back onto the shelves. I am putting back my focus which I’ve lost.

Alicia has just given me the 魔法球 for my birthday! I believe that there will be miracles, because it’s a kind of power! Alicia! I’m counting on it okay! :D HAHA! Thanks hor! ((:

To the one who had shaken my feelings unknowingly, I have decided to let 魔法球 decide. I’ve decided to have strong feelings for you. Maybe I didn’t really like you, or perhaps, it was just a moment of crush. I said, 1 week later I’m going to be ok. It after a week, I am okay now :D

Thank you, at least I know I’m back (:

長大了

2010-04-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

可能真的長大了吧。

因爲，看見人家幸福快樂我並沒有吃醋…

反而，心裏存有的是滿滿的感激老天爺讓他們那麽開心。

大家都是爲了幸福的日子才來到這個世界的，

擁有親情、友情和尋覓愛情。

有些人的來得快，有些人遲遲不來…

但是，你知道嗎？

心裏面的那種祝福是有多麽厚實，多麽的感恩嗎？

每天我都想要祝福身邊的人，今天晚上我想要打從心裏告訴一個很好的朋友

“ mandie!你要幸福哦！”

Blank Page

2010-04-11T23:30:00.001+08:00

We fall and stand up again.

I write on an empty piece of paper,
We can restart again by writing on a blank one.

Dramas, within our hands.
Isn’t it?

Am I too selfish?

Annoying the world

2010-04-11T22:20:00.001+08:00

I’m sorry to the people whom I’ve annoyed recently. I understand that I’ve been annoying far too many people about the thing that has been going on recently. I promise that from tonight onwards, I’d stop all that crap from this day.

Victims:

Mandie
Simin
Fang Ting
Gillian
Evan

Enough of my crap, Dean is apologizing to everyone here. I’m sorry! Back to lead a life of my own and not think about impossible possibilities.

Thank you, MANDIE!

2010-04-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

It was a very last minute outing, cos I needed to speak to Mandie very much. Nevertheless, she’s there. Still there :) My dear friend, I believe I must have neglected you very much last time. I’m a bad friend, yet you’re still so nice, and so understanding towards me. Thank you Mandie!

我正在想…

2010-04-11T22:01:00.001+08:00

你重新擾亂了我的生活
讓我再次返回我們以前聊天的内容。
那種受盡的心酸你懂不懂
現在身份不一樣了，
歷史可以重演嗎？

Thank you, SERENE! :D

2010-04-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

有人說...

2010-04-07T01:27:00.001+08:00

喜歡言承旭後我變得糊塗。
我也這麼認為耶..

他說的話：

2010-04-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

当我没有忘记梦想，我就没有忘记我自己。

没有忘记言承旭，本来是什麽样子

9314...

那是台北飞向南澳的阿德莱德的距离。

9314...

那是从真实飞向梦想的距离。

9314...

那是多年后，一个男孩从寻找到终于蜕变成一个男人的距离。

只有小孩子他们自己知道，他们在找什麽。

假如有人把他的娃娃拿走，他们就会开始哭。

所以他们很幸福。

9314...

那是当梦想再度回到起点的时候。

当我还是一个男孩的时候，我的梦想好多好多，

想要让家人过好日子，想要成为一个让妈妈觉得骄傲的人。

我很少对人说出内心梦想，连我最好的朋友都很少说。

我不希望，别人会认为我是一个不自量力的人。

拥有一个牧场，就是我的梦想。

我从很久很久以前就觉得，跟动物相处，比人还要简单。

因为我不是一个会跟人家交际，也不是一个很外放的人。

甚至会因为那些特质，会让人家有一些不一样的距离感。

或者或者很多时候，会让人产生一些误会。

其实不太愿意长大......

而且其实我很简单，就像是一个农夫，

我可以每天，每天很规律的照顾那些小动物，做那些粗活。

做那些，可能在有一些人的眼中，看起来会是一个很麻烦，很辛苦的事情。

但那些事情，反而会让我回到一种最单纯，最自然的状态。

当这次我又来到澳洲，而且是他地到了南澳的一个牧场。

我感觉自己跟梦想，又更接近了。

这裏也给了我一个家的感觉，日出而作，日落而息。

无边的大地，自给自足的生活。

在这边我要跟大家分享一件事情，

我觉得那件事情，对我，对每一个人来说都很重要。

那就是...我觉得现在有梦想，其实应该要说出来。

不要害怕你做不到，太容易做到的事情，就不是梦想了。

所以，加油哦，跟我一样。

Why so serious?

2010-04-05T00:23:00.001+08:00

I am very serious about being serious cos I think being serious sometimes makes me really a boring person. Hence, I became so unserious that people stop taking me seriously that when I am serious they thought I am kidding.

So, people only believe 50% person of what I said, and only when things happened they regret not listening to me at 100% and I’ll stand there and just shrug my shoulders and say: “I’ve told you. You didn’t take me seriously.” Then my eyebrows raise in a very sarcastic manner, and I walked away.

I am not serious because there are things which doesn’t need to be serious, in my opinion. But, if you take every single thing so seriously, then I think your living so wearily. Aren’t you tired? Take it easy, slow, enjoy the pace of life.

It’s a time to be “unserious” and stop being so tensed up. No sweat okay!

開心不？

2010-04-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

其實我很開心能夠重新發現我自己。我已經盡力讓自己開心，也很努力的在成長。遇上的很多事情讓我對我自己現在的人生有了重新考量的舉止。我想要再關心身邊的朋友多一些，讓他們能夠感受到我的真誠，讓他們知道我也很在乎他們。不管以前發生什麽事有沒有和你們有關聯，現在如果我們還在保持聯絡，就是一種緣份啊。那麽就應該好好的把握這種難得的友情。

我不想要失去好朋友。也不想要因爲某一些事情而影響任何對我們友誼不良的東西。可能是四月的關係，我在這個月份超級開心的啦。所以，請恕我那麽過分的high喔………………..當然也到有點感觸啦，你們也知道的…我感觸良多耶！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!

:D:D:D:D

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2010-04-04T20:22:00.001+08:00

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9314。

那是台北飛向南澳的阿得萊德的距離。

那是從真實飛向夢想的距離。

那是多年後，一個男孩從尋找到蛻變成一個男人的距離……

◎「他是全世界對我最好的人。」她說──當他後來知道她曾經這麼說的時候，他就變成一個男人，他必須要變成一個男人才能抵擋那陣排山倒海的心酸。

◎那個朋友紅著眼眶謝謝他。因為Jerry塞給他280萬買一台可以讓他達到業績的車。但直到現在Jerry還是開著很爛的車。因為那個人後來帶著錢不見了。

◎我跟公司的同事說，我希望在拍這檔戲的時候，你們都不要跟，我希望讓自己再回到那種凡事都自己來的狀態，因為言承旭從以前就是吃苦的。

◎我沒有打斷他的瞭望，也只消幾秒鐘，我見Jerry臉上很快閃過雲彩，在那剎那我發現他好像已經不是我當年認識的那個男孩。

作者簡介
角子

以前作唱片，現在作藝人書及新媒體。
言承旭的老朋友之一。

不真實

2010-04-01T01:43:00.001+08:00

很好的感覺，很久沒這樣了。
但是，這一切都不真實。
常常都是我自己在胡思亂想..

Resolved

2010-03-30T01:23:00.001+08:00

The case has finally been resolved. Magazines can be delivered on time. I guess the printers must have been pestered by us till their pants caught fire. Well, lesson learnt already. Be super meticulous and don't be afraid of being naggy towards those that are doing ur printing job. Any mistake made will be a cost incurred and will reflect very badly on ourselves. So, it's very sickening.

Can sleep soundly already:)

S.H.E 我愛雨夜花

2010-03-28T14:43:00.002+08:00

很赞！

偶像劇哦...

2010-03-22T01:02:00.001+08:00

現在，我只是想要好好睡一覺，

因爲起來之後我的美夢就暫時停止。

看戯真的能夠影響到人的情緒，

會問自己爲什麽那些美好的事情… 都不發生在自己的身上？

Mistake

2010-03-17T01:01:00.001+08:00

Right, I made a mistake. And it's almost deadly enough to kill me. Really, not kidding. An excuse I would give is, this is the very first time I'm handling so many creative buys for a magazine. If you pass by the news stands on 26th March, you'll get what I mean. The Nuyou magazine is polybagged and cartonized, a total of 10 creative buys for this issue, drove me nuts.

Before I left office, I was rushing a mock-up of this Nuyou April issue. And I'm not done yet, I gotta do it before it's too late. Really, I'm very very late in giving them the mock-up. Serious business. I feel like I'm going nuts. If this is going to happen for every issue, I don't know how am I gonna survive this. I know I can, just that I'm gonna get confused.

Mistake I made today. I miscalculated and gave the wrong print quantity for the artcards. I kept mixing up my figures. Arghs! So I'm gonna make a big reminder here. To myself:

ALL INBOUND CREATIVE BUYS ARE CONSIDERED "MAGAZINE ONLY" ANYTHING BOUND-IN. WHATEVER THAT'S TIP-IN IS NOT TO BE GIVEN TO THE "MAGAZINE ONLY" CATEGORY!

Ok, should be enough to remind myself of this bad moment. My heart stopped for many many moments, because I was freaking out. I was dumb though, Rainey asked me to check with Alicia first. I kpo-ed and asked the production person in charge. Though that's the correct way, but I was not fairly treated. Candy, production i/c lectured me like I was her kid. Quite nonsensical. Ok, dumb. These figures have been conveyed to her also what. Aiyah, old birds are always trying to pick on the young ones. What nonsense!

Tomorrow is another day. Oh yeah. I don't feel blue, I just wanna laugh. It's dumb, really for making small things like tomorrow's dead. Seriously, what do they mean?! Dumb lah!

I want to sleep olreaddyyy!

Skip to bed :D

Keep calm

2010-03-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

and believe what you believe.

Tuesday means to do thorough checks on your work.

Shuddup!

2010-03-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

I do not owe anybody an explanation of my actions and my thoughts. I don't have to explain to anybody about my habits and used to bes. I don't have to explain why I have lived like this for 20 years. I don't need to explain to anybody about why I am allowed to live this way.

I don't have to explain also that I am using my own money to buy everything I own right now. I don't need to tell you if my parents did. But besides my school fees and handphone bill, my parents have not fork out a single cent since I started working.

It's very vexing to have to explain to anyone of you about my lifestyle. You guys don't know me afterall, so pls if you could feel what I'm thinking stop questioning and answering those questions yourself about me.

None of you know me.

goodbye

2010-03-14T18:54:00.001+08:00

Bored

2010-03-14T18:39:00.001+08:00

Picturing someone new

2010-03-06T17:47:00.001+08:00

Hmmm…someone new.

不聽話的女兒 A Disobedient Girl

2010-02-28T11:48:00.001+08:00

《不聽話的女兒》是斯里蘭卡小說。斯里蘭卡古稱「錫蘭」，一直是英國殖民地。直到一九四八年，二戰結束後才宣佈獨立。一九七二年改國名為斯里蘭卡，同時期，國內四大種族之一的印度泰米爾人也要求獨立，並成立了解放組織：「泰米爾－伊拉姆猛虎解放組織」。
「猛虎組織」從一九七二年起，成為斯里蘭卡國內動亂的主要來源。書裡頭「碧娑」那段漫長的鐵路之旅，一路上的動亂爆炸，以及她情人席瑞的背景和命運，都和這段歷史有關。

二○○九年五月，斯里蘭卡政府軍將猛虎組織的最高首領擊斃，這場歷時三十七年的內戰才算正式終結。故事裡，分別是兩段敘述，一段是「碧娑」，一段是「萊颯」，很明顯，兩人身處兩個時代，或許由於內戰，這兩個時代似乎差別不大。生活在所謂「現代」斯里蘭卡的萊颯，所遭遇的限制與囚禁，與早她一代的碧娑並無差別。
我有點好奇，對於國家這樣漫長的動亂，一個男性的斯里蘭卡作家，會有怎樣的書寫。張愛玲在「傾城之戀」裡敘述：

香港的陷落成全了她……也許就因為要成全她，一個大都市傾覆了。成千上萬的人死去，成千上萬的人痛苦著。
於女性，外界好像始終不如內在重要。整個世界傾覆了，似乎也不如自身的成全或摧毀巨大。這是女性史觀。我們是真正活在生命之流裡的性別，天然知道，外在世界來來去去，儘管千變萬化，但自身的解放如果未落實，國家或世界的解放，其實未能改變我們什麼。
從身世看，生活在較早年代的「碧娑」似乎比「萊颯」更有勇氣。她出身階層良好，讓父母婚配給自己不愛卻門戶相當的男人。婚後外遇，對抗著家族和鄰舍的鄙視和敵意，公然與情人出雙入對，並且生下情人的孩子。

碧娑的時代，這種對抗是必須付代價的。這個「不聽話」的女人，在故事開始時，已經經歷了一切，她的情人被殺，丈夫離開她。她帶著婚姻裡和婚姻外的幾個孩子，坐火車回家鄉去投奔親人。她「解放」自己的方式是激進、猛烈，而且壓迫性的，與猛虎組織的暴力，某種程度來說，如出一轍。為了她自己在愛情上的自由和自主，她等於逼迫了自己的丈夫去刺殺情人。她選擇了自己的路，同時也替他人選擇了無法迴避的命運。

書裡有一段驚人的描寫。碧娑的列車行駛到某截路段時出了意外，險些翻覆。原來是有人臥軌。碧娑下車去察看，發現死的是一家四口，都穿著代表聖潔與贖罪的白衣。男人把自己的妻子和兒女綁在鐵軌上，自己則臥著軌道之間的枕木，用列車帶來的死亡淨化一切。這妻子犯的是與碧娑同樣的通姦罪，因此被丈夫處決，並且賠上了兒女；碧娑卻全身而退，得到一個，雖然艱難，生機渺茫，卻可以重新開始的機會。
這段描寫，或許不是作者本意，卻讓我看到男性的痛苦和無力。對於「不聽話」的女人，男人除了選擇鮮血，似乎沒有別的辦法。自己的鮮血，情敵的鮮血，或者妻子和孩子的鮮血。這多半不是他願意的，然而他好像比出軌的妻子更無從選擇。當女人出軌時，他便被挪移到了必須殺死別人殺死自己的軌道上。

三十年後，新一代的「萊颯」，遇到的是不再這樣「負責」的男性。對於女人的「不聽話」，他們攫奪來成為自己的利益。如果女人要叛逆，要背德，要越軌，他們理所當然成為同謀者。萊颯這一代，男女關係的紊亂與輕描淡寫，幾乎是書裡唯一「現代化」的東西。到底是二十一世紀，在從前會鬧出人命的背叛與出軌，甚至非婚生子，無論扯出多大的風波，都構不成真正的問題。
書中描寫的斯里蘭卡，依然存在階級制度，社會風習似乎還維持舊狀。女孩子成年後的沐浴淨身儀式，去廟中祈福，婚慶大典中的華麗儀軌，給人一種斯里蘭卡充滿古老風味的錯覺。但是現代的斯里蘭卡女人萊颯，依舊被囚禁在愛裡。

萊颯自小被好姊妹莎拉的父親收養，這收養並不平等，女孩子初經來臨，莎拉獲得成年式假期時，萊颯知道了自己地位低下，不夠資格得到這些，她只是個僕人。然而於女性，美貌從來都是比階級或財富更有力的東西。尤其在二十一世紀。
在處理「性」或「愛」時，女性似乎不再有老一代婦女的包袱。性，至少在萊颯的身上，同時是盾牌和武器。她用性來抵禦自己不受傷害，也用性來攻擊和傷害他人。與純粹因為愛而發展婚外情的碧娑相比，萊颯的性或愛複雜許多。
或許不忠誠只能交換到不忠誠，萊颯在她的生命中一直以迂迴、扭曲、退避隱藏的方式來接近愛，社會其實已經可以允許她更勇敢一些，因為她的好姊妹莎拉一樣出軌，似乎無論是心理或現實的包袱都沒有。

兩個人的差異實在不是階級的問題，只是個人選擇。萊颯只是抗拒不了自己的美貌所附加的勾引能力。如果不使用，不親眼看見它的作用，如何知道美貌的力量呢？
因為這種不忠實，對自己的不忠實，男人便學會理直氣壯的辜負它。萊颯一生，遇到的男人皆都始亂終棄。最後，她與當年的碧娑一樣，被迫離開原有的環境。

碧娑的姨媽說過一句話：「人離開的原因很多。可能因為愛錯了人，或者因為對的人不愛她們。」兩代女人最後都為了男人離開。時代唯一的進步是世界給予了不聽話的女人較多同情。碧娑不敢曝露自己的真實身份，對前途毫無信心；而萊颯腹中懷著孩子，卻對未來充滿希望。然而，如果女人選擇自己的「來」或「去」，都還是因為男人，那麼，無論世界如何進步，她其實依舊囚禁在愛裡，並談不上解放。

--Eslite.com.tw

Always a time

2010-02-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

There's always a time whereby you feel that there's nothing else more important than happiness. You'll start to think about events that has happened that made you happy. A time you never wanted to stop. I reminisce the time when I was little. All I wanted was to grow up and get to work, to earn bucks and buy whatever I wished for.

When I started my first job, it was a dream come true. Got my Apple iPod MP3 player, and I was so excited. That time I was earning $5 an hour. I thought of furthering my studies abroad, but yet I don't think I fit the environment and I'm not independent.

I've grown up, learning some 'ropes' in life. I am thankful for where I am right now. I feel happy about being here, with who I am, and being who I am. Although there's no relationship in my life, and it's not important at all now. I admit thinking about.. what if one day I meet Mr. Right? Hmm.. I can't imagine and to be honest, I am happy being alone right now.

Weekends, I don't go out if there's nobody who asks me out. I lie around at home, I learn the enjoyment of watching the TV. Since the internet was being brought alive, I never watched a lot of TV like now. I have more time, doing D.I.Y mask? Washing my face, online shopping, studying and doing my assignments. It's carefree. No doubt.. I do feel lonely sometimes. But, no worries! Should've gotten used to it :)

Just be happy, and smile :):)

Stressed

2010-02-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

I am seriously very stressed, but before I proceed with doing my own stuffs - homework, I need to vent.

Another person's leaving the office, and it's from our team, and it means that our workload will be added onto what we're doing right now. It is really stressful and I have nothing else to say except to work and work. Unhelpful people from production team, being bias. We're thrown into a pool of crap, seriously. Enough.

I'm going to think about my homework now. Submission deadline 1st March, 2359PM.

就想賴著你呀~

2010-02-21T20:07:00.001+08:00

只为爱上你

S.H.E

词:蓝小邪曲:杨子朴编曲:吕绍淳

RAP:如果说这世界不够完美不够好

一定是在等我们

亲手给它变得美好 (爱上你~)

就像爱看起来会那么少

一定是在等我们 (爱上你~)

一起勇敢寻找一起找到

一片片落叶为开出个花园

手牵手挨过整个冬天

每只蝴蝶为了飞为了翩翩起舞

先做一个茧

最美海岸线总是要很蜿蜒

才足够让人忘返流连

你的身边要不是比天边还遥远

勇气怎么出现

当你终于走到我的面前

完成所有的画面

就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍

只剩喜悦

只有我了解这幸福感觉

美得值得付出一切

能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你

感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵

好得值得你为我改变

让你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容

一天一天到永远那一天

就想赖着你

言承旭

有点拽

有点坏

你的style 很难猜

不太符合观众的期待

oh你生气

你耍赖

真性情无人替代

多么被你万种姿态

你看那北极的白雪皑皑

都竟已被你化开

奔流的没有阻碍

心情低当时为我赶走阴霾

疗愈了我的心痛

遗忘过去伤害

oh 女孩

喜欢你的花裙摆

甜蜜告白别见外

你的笑像春风滋养盆栽

只想黏着你一直爱

oh 女孩

喜欢你白雪皑皑

想和你一起看海

赖着你就像难搞的小孩

只想对你傻傻依赖

不偏不移

不疾不徐

爱神的箭穿起我你

寻寻觅觅

扑朔迷离

真爱原来就在这里

相偎相依

相知相惜

傻傻的就想赖着你

不要怀疑

真爱无敌

You were our Friend, then.

2010-02-20T00:01:00.001+08:00

I have a friend or rather a workmate in office. We have always been on good terms, a whole group of us were so happy until Christmas day everything seemed to have changed. There are many things which are beyond our expectations, even though we don’t even expect them, things are still happening.

She has tendered on the day we first went to work on Wednesday after the Lunar New Year. Well, I don’t know what kind of thoughts are going through my mind. All that we felt was that, she has acted too recklessly; allowing her emotions to rule her head. Resignation to her means out of job, and she’s telling me that she has enough money to be out of job for a few months. I do not understand what’s going through her mind exactly. She has been acting oddly nowadays that distances us away from her. Next moment, she hands the letter to her manager.

We are really okay with her not lunching with us, if she chooses to go lunch with another two other people. It’s a democratic society nobody is stopping you from doing anything you wish. If you think we’re stopping you or refraining you from your freedom, you are wrong. Whoever you want to join, or be with we are absolutely and totally fine with it.

I am very disturbed by your actions. You have painted an image since then that your lifestyle doesn’t allow you to do this and that, but right now you’re painting another different image to us, telling us that everything you’ve said earlier is a totally opposite thing. It’s a kind a disappointment I see in a friend like you. I am not telling you how weird we think you are, but personally I feel that deep down you are not who you were when we first knew you. I doubt your being nice to me was sincere, you mentioned “There’s a motive why I dote on you so much”. Hey, I am not for you to be made use of. Enough, I have had enough of you. I am not giving in to you even till this date. Simply because you’re not worth it anymore.

You may have been suppressing your true personality since 3years back. I have been made fun of by you, severely. I am not bearing a grudge, I feel useless actually. I told nobody but my family.

If you think you are always in the right, and if you think that by being selfish works, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I’ve appeared to have demolished your successful suppression of true personality. If my presence has activate your “leopard spots”, I am sorry but I have finally seen through you. You are of no difference from the braggers and the group of people whom you’ve gossiped and cursed the most.

If you’ve ever treated us as your friends, you wouldn’t be so personal about difficulties, you wouldn’t have wanted to break us up from the group. Maybe we were making guesses, you just wanted us back to the threesomes. It’s not possible, you know? A bond has been form, it’s not easy to break. We’re comfortable being with one another, straight forward with anything and everything we say because “we are friends”. If we are your friends, you would not be so selfish, you would not have told me what nobody else knew. I was and am still very angry with you.

“I don’t like people to make other people a topic and laugh about it.”

You told me that, so loudly. What are you doing right now? You are acting what you’ve commented on us. How would the three others react when they learn about this sentence which you’ve commented? I think they wouldn’t even bother eating and speaking to you. We were once friends, the whole group of us. We are still friends, only you trying to distant away and trying to break that bond.

Wake up! You can’t be so possessive when it comes to office-friends. Taking every joke so seriously, and only able to accept yourself making a joke about other people. Aren’t you selfish? Aren’t you being absurd?!

Now, we do not give in. I, do not give in either. Do not expect me behaving like how I was before – entertaining you even though I’m busy to the max! I am not like this anymore, I am really busy. My workload is indescribable. I have no time to entertain you.

I hope you could see the light some day, and face up to reality. Know how to see and think carefully and not going around venting your anger and emotions as and when you wish.

I wish you all the best in wherever you go, and being able to do things that you really like to. All the best.

Happy Things - Hey！你快樂嗎？

2010-02-19T23:05:00.001+08:00

如果不快樂我可以陪你直到你快樂爲止哦。我喜歡身邊的所有人都快樂，就算醜化我自己換取你們真心的微笑，我也在所不辭。無論你是我身邊的朋友還是離我非常遙遠的朋友，我都要你們知道我想要你們快了哦！

就算天塌下來也要把它當被蓋啊。就算你的生活有多麽的美滿還是要記得飲水思源，就算世界上沒有真心的人，你也要安慰自己。

有些東西，不需要等待也更不需要堅持。
一切順其自然，那不是很好嗎？

祝你們好運哦 :)

拜託你們！

2010-02-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

在這個階段我希望妳們能夠不要來干涉我的自由。二十幾歲的人了給妳關東拉西的，很煩你知道嗎？我真的受不了了。請妳們不要對我做什麼、穿什麼、和誰見面，通通都有意見好嗎？我被這種「過度的關心」弄得頭昏眼花，快窒息了好不好？！所以 please stop!

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2010-02-11T15:38:00.002+08:00

Fight!

2010-02-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna fight with you Dear Obstacles!

$95

2010-02-07T21:59:00.001+08:00

I am feeling super stupid. How come?

Ok, I thought my CD-drive is officially spoilt so I went to Challenger to get another external CD-drive. I came home to install it. Guess what? It didn’t work at all. I’m awfully devastated. So I went to Microsoft’s website and keyed in “CD drive” and so the option for missing CD-drive appeared I clicked. An automated fix could be done.

Argh! There goes my freaking $95! Anyone wants to buy it from me? I so want to cry, my CD drive is totally okay now. Heartbreak lah :\

Hitlists: Show Luo

2010-02-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

罗志祥 - 危险的念头

我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮了
狼狈沉默放空泪光胡渣心痛
我不能跟朋友说你做的事让他们觉得
你是坏的

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了
欺骗自私辩驳嘴角眼神冷漠
我强忍爱流血了但承受不了冤枉的痛
你的心变了还说是我的错

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己只会让我可悲透了
找新的爱伪装幸福却假的更寂寞
封锁关系不去比较才能癒合

念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够伤亡多惨重

罗志祥 - 老实讲

爱你却从不讲幸福的致命伤
从此我只能够在部落格上
路过你快乐悲伤

你说你想飞翔所以我不阻挡
希望你能够在他的肩膀上
找到那爱的信仰

我承认有些话当时没老实讲
那么坏人就让我来当
我了解有些话现在没老实讲
明天我将失去了胆量
当你成为别人的新娘

我承认有些话当时若老实讲
现在就不会两败俱伤
其实爱你的心早已濒临疯狂

连我自己也无法抵抗
再也还原不了的时光

杨丞琳&罗志祥 - In Your Eyes

你问我你眼中我看到甚麽
我回答隐形眼镜
还有一个帅到翻的我
我问你你眼中你爱我甚麽
你总是吊我胃口
故作神秘爱说不说

男生都这样爱耍坏
行为举止挑战我的忍耐
女生才是有够奇怪
心里永远那麽多Why

In Your Eyes 发现一种东西叫爱
因为爱所以我存在
In Your Eyes 看见生活多麽精彩
看著你我神眼离不开
早被你打败
其实你悄悄变成我的最爱
My Love Is For You

吃醋撒娇生气耍赖是你的专利让你来疼我
爱我让我喂我这些小事情让你来
只要让我(你)愉快就算耍冷下不了台
我全都愿意都是因为爱

我问你你眼中透漏些甚麽
你笑著保持沉默让我期待你的承诺

请闭上眼睛坏的你想做甚麽哪有做甚麽
你的小计谋才不可能骗到我
oh 你的眼睛也累了该休息一下
就让我趁这个机会靠近你吻你一下

In Your Eyes 发现一种东西叫爱
因为爱所以我们存在
In Your Eyes 看见生活多麽精彩
因为有你才会精彩
看著你我神眼离不开早被你打败
其实你悄悄变成
我的最爱 My Love Is For You

God’s Message

2010-02-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

Your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it

God loves you with the very air you breath, the very light that touches your skin, the very ground that supports you. Love is everywhere, - melt your barriers, and you will have love in abundance.

A whirlpool of obstacles

2010-02-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

I've never felt so devastated before in my life. My supervisor told me about what the deputy editor talked about me. He mentioned to her that I was rude towards him, and kept mentioning that everything is according to SOP, and even questioned her about whether such SOPs have really been implemented. Of course, these are procedures which have been implemented by the current management. FYI, I've been very flexible towards them. But, it wasn't being appreciated. I have given them all the information relevant, all they have to do is the necessary action on their own.

Apparently those two colleagues of mine, think that I can be eaten up. But honestly, I don't give a shit about it. I just felt bad that I have met such people. Not only have they malign you for being rude to them when you were almost bowing to them when you speak. Giving them flexibilities, doing things and offering an extra hand to help out in times of need. Yet, they turn one round and bite you up till you're worn out, and as you feel like giving up they give you another jab that makes you really breakdown - I broke into tears, in front of my supervisor. I was in utter devastation. I couldn't believe that this day would come to me, though I've expected it.

I guess this is where and how I learn about being human. I've never been in a working environment and haven't met such people before. In the first 20 years of my life, I felt that human will not be so scheming to such extremes. But upon beginning my 22nd year of my life, I learnt so much within these 2 years. About life, work and the human relationships around me. I don't know how I should describe this. I'm thankful for bad things that happened, and unfortunate incidents, and the people who've tried to bring me down but still I'm standing still, not blown away by the obstacles you guys have wanted to plunge me into. I am not a person who will give up easily on something. Last time, I may be doubtful of saying this, but now I am certain.

I am not plastic, I am not superficial. I am always being myself. But if being myself now annoys you, and irritates you. I will continue being myself. I may differ from who I was 2-3yrs back. I am sure, but parts of me are still the same. If you're some long lost friend, I believe you will notice the difference. Mentality, attitude - minor differences. One thing for sure I didn't change - a bag lover and a spendthrift. Haha!

I am really trying to survive, by myself. There are some things which I couldn't say, or have no one to turn to in such awful and down times. I missed those days where I could share any happiness and woes to at least someone out there. But now, I'm depending on my own to heal and convince myself that I can pull through. I won't want to speak much, because since it's over then let's just put it behind us. It's preferred not to rake it up, but if you are concern, I am still willing to share with you anything that I feel that I could share with you. Anyone of you :)

I need a clear and focus mind. It's like a battle between the same sexes! Oh my goodness! But well, it's work life I guess. We learn and live and learn to be better people, and not become worse.

birthdays

2010-02-02T07:47:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to you :)
my friend.

Lecture 1 PPT

2010-02-01T23:11:00.001+08:00

I am staring at my lecture notes for my first lesson tomorrow, and my reaction was..

"完蛋了，完蛋了，完蛋了!"

See only the good stuff :D

2010-01-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

IF YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE.

YOU WILL BE :)

Good will happen.

2010-01-31T22:42:00.002+08:00

ERASE. REMOVE. DELETE. BLANCO.
IT'S MONDAY AGAIN TOMORROW.
TELL ME WHO LOVES WORK.
HAHA, I KNOW OF SOMEONE WHO DOES ;D

Then again.. If I don't work I will have no money. No money, cannot spend. If I cannot spend, I'll be considered bankrupt. I think I need to go for running again. I like that perspiration getting out, like releasing all my frustrations and unhappiness. It's going to be great this week, cos school's starting on Tuesday. Awesome (:

Guess this: People from which country gamble heavily? (think the dialect way)

Tag if u know the answer. I'll tell you :D

SHOUT OUT :D

2010-01-31T22:31:00.003+08:00

GO AHEAD.

JUST GO AHEAD WITH

YOUR FEELINGS

YOUR EMOTIONS

YOUR MOMENTUM

YOUR IMAGINATIONS

YOUR THOUGHTS

YOUR HAPPINESS

YOUR SADNESS

YOUR LIFE

YOUR MADNESS

YOUR SILENCE

YOUR CALMNESS

LET.LIFE.LEAD.

LUCK.SUCK.FUCK.

你出遠門了嗎？

2010-01-31T17:09:00.001+08:00

就如我的標題所問：你出遠門了嗎？

有多少人希望自己可以乘搭飛機明天想要去哪兒就去哪兒，多麽自在的。如果我們乘搭飛機不需要用錢買機票，不需要刻意的上網了解外國的當地情況怎樣，那也該有多好？

最近這兩個月裏我去了三個不同的地方，感受不同的亞洲風氣。最後，我覺得最舒服的還是香港和吉隆坡。泰國 - 語言不通，走在路上也心驚膽戰的。路名都沒有英文字哦，都是他們自己寫自己懂的泰語。唯一最令人感到爽的還是他們的購物啦。不要看他們的早市夜市什麽跟什麽的購物中心哦，超級無敵棒的地方！有個夜市 – Suan Lum Night Bazaar，轉賣他們當地 designer fashion 的衣服。價錢比在外邊賣的還要貴一些，可是 style 都別具一格，非常新穎。當然，跟新加坡的價格比起..遜色得好！很便宜.. 就套我們常說的“要便宜也要新鮮”！

吃方面，如果你不喜歡吃辣的就會比較難一點了。我本身覺得他們的 spicy food 比較好吃。不管吃什麽都要加一點辣椒才比較好吃嘛，淡淡的真難吃。哈，我住的酒店是Grand Diamond Hotel啦，一房一廳的。適合全家大小，還是好幾個朋友一起同住哦。而且地方離 Pratunam Market, Platinum Shopping Mall, Central World 都很近。

我不喜歡要回家的感覺。好不容易對地方熟悉的時候就得回去了，跟在香港的時候是一樣的感覺。但是沒有關係，還是可以回來的。下一站，我已經知道自己要幹嗎了。而且哦，我現在正在秘密進行一項挺艱巨的‘人生大事’哦，所以在我成功之前我是不會揭曉的！

我要給大家一個驚喜！

Alls Good, I will survive.

2010-01-20T23:25:00.001+08:00

Didn’t get promoted. But I will survive. It’s only 1 year in this place. I am good. The deputy editor gave me trouble again, I don’t know why. I am really very sick and tired of battling with them.

I need some time alone in the dark, but there are always some silly thoughts that linger. I will survive, I would and I must.

Struggle

2010-01-14T23:37:00.001+08:00

All I know that it was a struggle. Sometimes not knowing some stuff is better than knowing them. My aunty called up and told me stuff, and it ended with me going home and quarreling with her. Don’t ask me why.

She made me go hysterical. Insane. Driving me nuts. If you know me, you cannot repeat something too many times to me. I will just switch off, and for her.. Her tone makes it like I want things to happen. I am very frustrated with her. Enough is enough. & stop going around telling the whole world that I’m accusing you.

Just when I believed that ‘family ties will never die and they’ll be there wherever and whenever.’ This just spoilt it. Or maybe just her.

Actual Reason

2010-01-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

Do you know, I’m glad that you’ve decided to tell me the truth on your change? I understand that some things are within our control, especially changes in the human mindset and attitude.
Your mindset has changed to be unable to accept certain things. All I got to let you know is, we’ve all been in a clique for almost a year. I do not wish to see things tear apart just because of such issues.
My friend, face reality instead of running away from it. Running away just makes you distant from us even more. Barney and friends do want Dora. Keep that in mind.

A broken ribbon

2010-01-06T16:43:00.001+08:00

Apparently I could feel that there's something wrong in the friendship. She's not working on it, and she's irritating me very much. Does she feel outcasted, or what? She is most likely planning something under the covers without me knowing. But I believe I'm old enough to judge. And afterall, I'm just a colleague. There's no problem with the four us, there's a problem with you. You are rejecting us. Don't you realize?

Months back you mentioned: "I dote on you cos there's a motive."

So what's your motive? You're not scaring me, you're just making me feel that I'm just your toy. Because I'm nice, you're trying to pull me away from the crowd with you? Heavens sake! You're already making me afraid and reject you, what's more? I thought you'd have known that such close contact irks me. You're behaving really oddly, and strangely!

A gift, anyone?

2010-01-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

I super want this. I can't find.

If you can find it for me, I'd be uber thankful!!

Really.

Haha, give me as a gift anyone?

fat hope lah...

雨爱

2010-01-04T12:24:00.000+08:00

歌手:杨丞琳
专辑:海派甜心
Listen Here

窗外的天氣就像是你多變的表情下雨了
雨陪我哭泣看不清我也不想看清
離開你我安靜的抽離無人揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡學會放晴

聽雨的聲音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的Rainie Love

窗外的淚滴一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密讓你去延續
我相信我就會看到彩虹的漣漪

Chocolate

2010-01-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

So I wore my new pair of crocs which was only $38. And applied smurf color nail polish from sephora , given to me by Raine. Awesome color, like black but not:)) ok I'm sleepy now nights.

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MEANINGFUL THING.

2010-01-02T17:48:00.001+08:00

WHEN WORDS AND PICTURES MEET.

OFFICIALLY.

Hold Back

或許

激勵，

Back to the Start

Worn out.

What’s so true?

When there was good news in this place

Color Test - Results

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Your Existing Situation

Your Stress Sources

Your Restrained Characteristics

Your Desired Objective

Your Actual Problem

Personality Disorder Test

Depression Test

田馥甄 Hebe – 我对不起我

什麽時候才能不單戀呢？

林俊杰&張靚穎《我飛故我在》完整版MV

ta and ta.

To you

寂寞寂寞就好 Hebe 田馥甄

Things Only KohTanTang will do :)

So cute!

I am ugly, it's not a crime.

Being a listener

Happy Lemon!

Food For Thought – Friends Edition

Food For Thought – Food Edition

Humans and more humans

They are all one-sided

When you think the world fails you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDIE!

2-DAYS MC

It.

She has the style, so I like!

The Little Prince

Many many things!

加滑！很水啦~

Oh Mandie…

My 酷樂貼…

One life. Live it.

Family, ties.

文芳的YSL

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I like!

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You didn't have to.

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漸漸

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Let pictures speak :D

Happyness is simple :)

長大了

Blank Page

Annoying the world

Thank you, MANDIE!

我正在想…

Thank you, SERENE! :D

有人說...

他說的話：

Why so serious?

開心不？

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不真實

Resolved

S.H.E 我愛雨夜花

偶像劇哦...

Mistake

Keep calm

Shuddup!

goodbye

Bored

Picturing someone new

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